So much for last year's resolutions....Shame on me. I have lost 63 lbs, so that part is good, but as for recording my thoughts and moments? not so much.
This past year, I was so busy....I know that's not an excuse, but shame on me for neglecting my thoughts.
I will keep up on this pretty blog...and devote it to learning how to love, and love myself. It could get ugly.
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Monday, March 1, 2010
A big day for my feet!!!
Today I had a pedicure. It was the most amazing indulgent time I've spent in a long time. This sweet girl I work with gave it to me for my birthday, and I finally went and had it done, and I'm telling you...it was amazing. The nail professional was named "Sondra" and she was the nicest lady ever. She told me that she lost 50 lbs one year, and really gave me advice, but mostly we just talked about the mental struggles. It was amazing. She wrapped my feet in hot towels and love, and polished my toes up pretty.
I haven't been this relaxed in a while. I'm pretty happy!!!!
I haven't been this relaxed in a while. I'm pretty happy!!!!
Sunday, February 28, 2010
The Belly Fat Cure...
This year is a year for many changes, and one of the biggest is my commitment to lose weight, and get in shape. January 1, 2010 I weighed 257.7 lbs. I am not even embarrassed to admit that, because it is a number that I will never see again. It is also JUST a number, and cannot define who I am. There has never been a small person. I was never an exceptionally large child, but I always had a pooch of belly fat that my mother (who meant well) affectionatley called my "baby fat". "You'll lose it someday" she would say. Well, I turned 30 this year, and when I look down I can still see that same belly fat. And I haven't lost it yet.
This year a pivotal moment happened in my life. My whole life, I have always accepted my weight and body size, and contributed it to the fact that my father is morbidly obese. Although every January I work toward my weight loss goals, around March every year, I get frustrated, justify my weight, and give up. I then proceed to gain 10 or 15 more lbs. "It's genetic anyway" I would tell myself. "There's no point in losing it anyway. It would be impossible to keep off. My metabolism is just out of wack. I got it from my dad."
Well, even though this year, I started the same resolution to lose weight, and felt more commited then I ever had, this pivotal moment happened. It's simply this. I was watching Larry King Live, and Jillian Michaels, and Carny Wilson were the guests. Carny was talking about how hard it is to lose weight, and Jillian was telling her how hard it is NOT to. Now because Carny had lost and gained so many times in her life, I believe that she had a leg to stand on in this argument. I related so much to her. Well, Carnie said, "No Jillian! It really is hard! It's genetic. You can only fight genetics for so long!" Jillian snapped right back and said, "No Carny, you can only BLAME genetics for so long."
It was a wonderful moment in my life. I decided right then and there, that my parents were not to blame for my weight, nor were they responsible for changing it. As well as neither was my husband or children's who love me as much as they do. I do not have to lose weight to be "better" or look better....I just need to develop a lifestyle change that will make me healthier, feel better, and give me longeiveity to my life that is very much needed so I can take care of my beautiful family and allow me to set a better example for them. Most of all, I need to do it for myself, so I can know that I can set my mind to anything and that I am capable. There will be a portion of this blog dedicated to this aspect of my life style change....
This year a pivotal moment happened in my life. My whole life, I have always accepted my weight and body size, and contributed it to the fact that my father is morbidly obese. Although every January I work toward my weight loss goals, around March every year, I get frustrated, justify my weight, and give up. I then proceed to gain 10 or 15 more lbs. "It's genetic anyway" I would tell myself. "There's no point in losing it anyway. It would be impossible to keep off. My metabolism is just out of wack. I got it from my dad."
Well, even though this year, I started the same resolution to lose weight, and felt more commited then I ever had, this pivotal moment happened. It's simply this. I was watching Larry King Live, and Jillian Michaels, and Carny Wilson were the guests. Carny was talking about how hard it is to lose weight, and Jillian was telling her how hard it is NOT to. Now because Carny had lost and gained so many times in her life, I believe that she had a leg to stand on in this argument. I related so much to her. Well, Carnie said, "No Jillian! It really is hard! It's genetic. You can only fight genetics for so long!" Jillian snapped right back and said, "No Carny, you can only BLAME genetics for so long."
It was a wonderful moment in my life. I decided right then and there, that my parents were not to blame for my weight, nor were they responsible for changing it. As well as neither was my husband or children's who love me as much as they do. I do not have to lose weight to be "better" or look better....I just need to develop a lifestyle change that will make me healthier, feel better, and give me longeiveity to my life that is very much needed so I can take care of my beautiful family and allow me to set a better example for them. Most of all, I need to do it for myself, so I can know that I can set my mind to anything and that I am capable. There will be a portion of this blog dedicated to this aspect of my life style change....
Saturday, February 27, 2010
A blog to organize my thoughts, and declutter my brain!!!
There are so many elements to me: that I decided to organize them here in this little blog. I havent' decided how private I need to be, although the little things that make my daily life so interesting to me, may to the average reader seem very mundane. It's a good thing I'm not looking to make this into a living or anything.
The basic inspiration to this little bloglet, is the fact that this year, (last month) I turned 30 years old! When I was a child in the 80's there was a television show called "Thirty Something" I remember my parents completely loving it for they were after all in their thirties. They seemed SO old, and the actors in the show seemed even older. As a child I decided that I would rather die young than ever be the big 3.0. In hindsight however, I also recall thinking that the age I truly wanted to be was 16. I could then wear makeup, date, and drive a car. When I turned 16 however, I realized that those three things really weren't all that special due to the fact that there wasn't exactly a line out the door of men wanting to date me. Still, now that I am in fact 30, you couldn't pay me to go back to 16. So, I'm stuck at this age. I've passed through 3 whole decades, birthed 3 children, been married twice, (divorced once) and now live in Idaho Falls, Idaho with my husband, 4 children, 2 pets, and a wonderful lady whom we care for in our home. I have two extra step children who join us regularly, so we pretty much have a zoo. And do I like Zoos? Why YES I do! See why I could use some organization? Here we go!!!!
The basic inspiration to this little bloglet, is the fact that this year, (last month) I turned 30 years old! When I was a child in the 80's there was a television show called "Thirty Something" I remember my parents completely loving it for they were after all in their thirties. They seemed SO old, and the actors in the show seemed even older. As a child I decided that I would rather die young than ever be the big 3.0. In hindsight however, I also recall thinking that the age I truly wanted to be was 16. I could then wear makeup, date, and drive a car. When I turned 16 however, I realized that those three things really weren't all that special due to the fact that there wasn't exactly a line out the door of men wanting to date me. Still, now that I am in fact 30, you couldn't pay me to go back to 16. So, I'm stuck at this age. I've passed through 3 whole decades, birthed 3 children, been married twice, (divorced once) and now live in Idaho Falls, Idaho with my husband, 4 children, 2 pets, and a wonderful lady whom we care for in our home. I have two extra step children who join us regularly, so we pretty much have a zoo. And do I like Zoos? Why YES I do! See why I could use some organization? Here we go!!!!
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